A woman on the boat showed us a picture of a dolphin head just coming out of the water. She had missed the jump. She had a long telescopic lens and a very expensive camera. Doug pulled his IPOD out of his pocket but then placed it back in. I was proud of him. Doug has an amazing eye for photos and I cannot imagine the work he could do with a real camera.
The water was amazing. A calm day six and a half miles from shore gently rocking on the ocean. We were gifted an amazing memory. Fin whales blew their breath and water straight up in the air around us. A mother and baby among them. They were about a quarter mile from the boat and as they went for a deeper dive their backs arced over the water in graceful movement. They were large and gentle. The cow and calf came closer to the boat and as their water shot from their blow hole their faces could be seen. Their arched backs and dives sent the boat rocking. Like the little boats we had in the bathtub years and years ago with the thick bases that rocked and stayed up in the waves of the tub. We were a toy in the whole depths and miles of the magnificent waters watching these creatures swim and forage under the filtered sun.
The sky and the ocean fall together in an embrace making it difficult to see where one ends and the other begins. The whales and playful dolphins the same color as the currents. The birds swooped down, rested, bobbed, flew, caught our boat, rode the breeze easily on. Our spirits were deeply connected with every living thing around. So intertwined with the shy seal who came by, the sea lions, the birds, the sea life, the water, the sky, the sun, the sand, the people around us in similar awe. We are all one.
“Stop planning. Prepare for opportunities.”
I heard this as clear as if my friend had said it out loud next to me. I heard it in the sky. I heard it in my heart. Most of the chaos I create within revolves around planning. We limit ourselves. Buy a house. Get a job. Take a vacation. Work. Stay where you know. Do what you do. But, what if my future isn’t on a farm? What if I am to rent an apartment on the beach and write a novel? What if we take that trip we planned across the country documenting life on small farms? What if we nestle into our community and have a small garden and chickens and run our shop forever? What if we don’t?
I know better than to plan. This time last year we played bocce with our kids on the lawn, the gardens turned and ready to be planted. A few days after the bees would die. Then a few weeks later our dog would pass. Then we would receive a letter demanding our demise from farming and the life we knew. We would laugh, cry, grow, and strengthen and a shop would seemingly appear. All would be well. Doors open, doors close, without my planning.
“Be still.” This I hear a lot as well. No more planning. We are ready to take the ride and just see where it leads us. Leading us out on the ocean to commune with singing whales and playful dolphins was a gift not planned.