More and more of my to-do lists include things that will make me happy. Instead of working myself to death over say, dishes, I want to include more day to day activities that bring a smile to my face. Like smelling the orange blossoms in my window.
My daughter gave me this journal a few days ago. I love its cork-like cover and its simple but profound words.
Do one thing every day that makes you happy. Enjoy a cocktail on the porch watching the sunset. Read a great book. Be with the ones you love. Take a walk. Indulge in a bit of chocolate. Dream big.
We have done a great job of creating a life here that brings us profound happiness. There are horses and mules that come to greet me at the fence line in the evenings. There is peace and quiet and good water and sustenance to be had here. It is spiritual medicine out here. We live great and we help people for a living. We spend a lot of time together and we get to be near our granddaughter often. We talk to our children often. We live a great and happy life.
I have worked hard to incorporate more silliness into my day to day. It does not come naturally to me! I was the oldest. I have always been responsible. I am more serious than silly. My husband is the ultimate goofy person. Lord, if he needed another job a comedian would be suitable. He is a happy-go-lucky man and it rubs off on me. Laughing and silliness should be a part of our day to day.
I may be forty years old, but I have lived through much more. I realize that life is whatever you make it. This journey is to be taken lightly! We are to love the Creator and our fellow creatures that share this Earth with us. We are meant to be happy.
The passions that are put in our hearts are there for a reason. A bit of a guide map, if you will. What do you dream of? What do you want to accomplish and do? How can you get to that point? If you had no fear, what would you do? It’s scary just saying it. Maybe it is skydiving or something like moving to Brazil.
If I had no fear…
I would sell my Apothecary. There, I said it. I don’t utter it because I don’t want folks to think that I am not putting as much effort into it. My recipes are amazing. And I believe that my medicine is the best out there. I really do. I think it is stronger than pharmaceuticals. I feel blessed that we have been able to help virtually thousands and thousands of people around the world over the years. That was my calling and I achieved that. But new whispers are being quieted in my spirit.
If I had no fear I would sell my apothecary, my recipes, my name, my website, and I would teach the buyer everything they need to know to pick up where we are right now and run with it. We have a huge client base. Doug looks terrified when I say these things. How will we make a living?
I don’t know but I know that I want to farm. I want to throw myself into farming. And teaching. I love teaching! I want to keep my Herbalist School and my Homesteading School. If we got enough to live for a year or two from the sale (this hypothetical sale…do people even buy businesses anymore?) we would have enough. We could see where the Creator leads us. I think there is something around the corner. It’s exciting and terrifying and often seems completely preposterous. But so did closing my dance company to become an herbalist.
A few things come to mind…when I wake up I am not excited to make medicine and fill orders anymore. I am excited to get outdoors, to be in the soil, to teach students, to share my enthusiasm, to grow fresh food.
And while we’re at it, I want to publish a book.
Alright, now it’s your turn. How will you add some silliness to your day? What will you do today that makes you happy? And if you had to fear…what would you do?